These are the definitions I found when I plugged "fat" into www.thesaurus.com.
Today I went to MEC and while I was in the store, I got so hot so quickly that my heart started to beat faster and I felt nauseous. This could have been because MEC turns me on, and makes me excited...but unfortunately it was because I am too fat and started to feel faint due to my fatosity*.
Recently I have received some online photo albums by email where I showed up in some of the pics. What a nasty sight. I've felt unhappy with my weight for about 10 years, but I've loved food so much that it's always been "food vs nice body" and food won every time. My skin is terrible, my hair is unhealthy, and I have a general look of "exhaustion". I look 10 yrs older than I am. I feel gross all of the time. My knees hurt, my back hurts, I get tons of headaches, etc. It's time to buck up and face the music. I need to do this publicly so that I am held responsible and stay on track.
Here are my goals:
1. to fit into the womens' line of MEC clothes
2. to feel good, mentally and physically
3. to not feel embarrassed to reconnect with old friends that I haven't seen in a long time
4. to be healthy enough to be around for a long time for my friends and family
Here is what I will do:
1. eat better (duh)
2. not follow a "diet"persay - but put my BPHE degree to use for once
3. cut out red meat
4. treat myself to chicken wings (my weakness) once a month
5. get back into the exercising routine that I was once in
I don't have a specific weight loss goal. I just want to get to a weight where I feel healthy and am happy. When I first started university, I was 70 lbs less than I am now (yikes). See pic - yes that is me on the far right.....(not the chick with half a finger, holding a camera - she has nails -something I've never had).
When I finished university, I was 40-50 lbs thinner than now.
God I love that picture. We were at the Bay in Montreal in 1996. We saw these hats, and decided to pretend we were models. Funny. Look ma, I have cheekbones.
Recent(ish) pics of me (it pains me to post these)
So as you can see, I have some work to do.
Recently, Jann Arden lost a ton of weight. She looks 20 years younger, vibrant, and happy. If she can do it, why can't I?
So don't be surprised some of my future posts have to do with me bitching about my journey.
Wish me luck. With my past habits, I will definitely need it.
* a word created by me
3 comments:
First off let me say that, having seen you in person recently I wouldn't even remotely consider you fat. Plus, nobody is the same size they were when they started university.
Anyhoo...
Good for you for wanting to make a positive change in your life and having a practical attitude about it. I see nothing but success in your future.
Let me know when you're ready to do a little "I need new clothes because my old ones are way too big for me" shopping. Nothing says "I'm fit but I know it" like a pair of sexy jeans.
Ohhhhh Nicola- thanks for your nice words...
Somehow I think you're still the same size as you were in University. You tiny ting, you.
Cha.
M
Cut out wheat! It's the devil, I tell you. Having been through what I went through last year, I have become convinced that wheat is bad for you regardless of whether or not you have Celiac disease like me.
I have to say, I eat a really limited diet, but I feel so much better, even if my weight hasn't changed. If you want to eat like a celiac, here's the deal:
- No wheat, rye, or barley (YES, this includes beer)
- Nothing that contains modified corn starch
- Otherwise, everything else is fair game
And I DEFINITELY would not call you fat. Don't get all up on what you weight, 'cause that sucks and it's stupid. :)
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