I recently had to alter my work parking situation due to increased traffic around the hospital. Basically, I park inside Sunnybrook/Wilket Creek Park and get shuttled to/from the hospital.Monday mornings are the most irritating of all days. They are the first day after the weekend....... obviously.
Sunnybrook Park
I know I have blogged many times about my disappointment in many people. I don't understand how some people get as far as they do in life, being so ignorant. As I drive into the park, I see first hand how ignorant people are. They obviously came to the park for a picnic on the Sunday with all of their family, utilized the BBQs and the picnic tables....ate heartily all day, salads, burgers, pop, chips - you name it. And then, they stand up from the picnic table and walk out of there. Not one thing has been picked up and moved to the garbage. Now imagine what the site looks like after a few hundred raccoons have rummaged through it.
I think of the park staff that now has to go to that site to clean it up. All because of these fucking ignorant people that think life owes them something.. so they leave their mess for someone else to deal with.Last Friday, as I was driving into the park, someone decided to kick/push over all of the garbage and recycling metal bins. Garbage and recycling everywhere. Now, I don't know if this was a result of the garbage strike, but either way, it was childish and again, ignorant. The park staff would likely be the ones moving them back their upright position and picking up garbage.
The other day, I was at McDonalds with my friends. We got there during a weekday lunch hour when school was still in session. It was packed. I knew these kids were from the public high school down the street. These kids were throwing food, yelling and being complete shits. There must have been about 50 kids in there, and they all seemed to leave at the same time. Not ONE KID brought their tray to the garbage to empty it. Two managers and the lobby person spent the next 10 minutes throwing out garbage and wiping down chairs and tables. I was chatting with one of the managers about it and he said that he thinks it should start at home. Parents needs to teach their kids these small lessons every day. I mentioned to my friends that it was disappointing to see kids that were so unruly and without a conscience. Seconds later, 4 boys from the private school down the road sat across from us. They ate their food quietly. I mentioned how the attitudes were completely different from the attitudes at the public school. It sold me at that moment - I had so much more respect for these private school kids.
And then, as though the world was laughing at my optimism, the kids got up and left.
Quietly.
They also left their trays and garbage on the table.
Okay I watched this the other day and it made me laugh.
I really feel bad for runway models. Not only do they starve themselves to fit into size -2, they have these workplace hazards... called catwalks. They are always shiny and smooth, which just spells disaster! I even saw one where there was a ramp down to the main stage. Are you kidding me? That's just mean.
This one makes me laugh, because it's the designer, not the model. It's makes me guffaw because of the way she falls through. One leg is left above the stage for a few seconds. HAHAHAHA. And then, as if the whole audience just didn't watch her fall through....the photographer that runs to help her, stands on the same structure that fell through the first time!
You know, I feel like I am 18 although I am 37, so when I see/hear of terrible things happening to my loved ones, it doesn't seem right. I don't know if I am just getting older and more aware of things or whether people still dealt with as much of this shit when I was younger. Is it more prevalent now?
Who fucking knows.
What I DO know is that it isn't fair. It's not fair that my father had tuberculosis, polio, heart disease, high blood pressure, diabetes, and osteoarthritis in his lifetime. It's not fair that my friend June died of cancer at 34 and left her 5 year old daughter and husband behind. It's not fair that my sister got cancer when she was 38 and had to deal with chemo and a surgery that left her in the hospital for a month...with a full year recovery. It's not fair that my friend Karen was diagnosed with breast cancer this year and is battling it as we speak.
And it's definitely not fair that cancer has returned for my sister. It's not fair that it's inoperable. It's not fair that she may not see her kids graduate, date, get married and have kids. It's not fair that she was given a short-term prognosis.
It's not fair that all of the bad stuff happens to the good people.
I don't have any answers. I can't even try to make sense of any of it.
I'm horribly sad. I'm angry. I'm upset. But most of all, I ache for my sister. I'm sad for my mom. I'm sad for my brother- in- law and for my niece and nephew.
I'm finding it hard to be hopeful and I'm finding it hard to be optimistic anymore. Why fucking bother? It seems that all of the good ones are taken away too early.
I realize my sister will be reading this and my intention is not to upset her. So Laurelle, just know that I love you and I will do everything I can to support you. I will continue to be a fun aunt and will be a positive female role model for the kids as they grow up. It's going to be a group effort but everything will be okay. Direct your energy at fighting this disease. We may look back in 10-20 years and laugh in the face of cancer.
