Well, it's been a few weeks since my last post and it feels like I am part of the real world again. It was a little precarious there for a while. I couldn't get motivated to get up, go to bed, or go anywhere. I had a pit in my stomach during my holidays...and was so preoccupied with the thought of going back, that I couldn't fully enjoy my time off. That sucked!
Things seem to be changing for the better and I am looking forward to the autumn and the winter.
I quit my job and accepted a position as Research Administrator at a research hospital. I start next week and I couldn't be happier with the pay increase, the benefits, and the hours. There is a ton of room for growth at this hospital, since it employs 11,000 people. I have always worked for organizations that have the minimal amount of workers and positions available. Hopefully now I can move around and actually make some money. In typical mind-f*ck fashion, my current boss told me that he didn't see my resignation coming, and that my current position was never a good fit for me. He actually said he could see me becoming an Executive Director (his position) for a sport organization. When I guffawed at that idea, he then told me that my lack of confidence is what prevents me from eventually reaching that goal. I snapped back at him and mentioned that the lack of self esteem is from him constantly illustrating that I can't even do my current job properly......
He's in his own world and I don't give a shit anymore. He can pretend all he wants.
Moving on, literally and figuratively.
Recently I did some creative work for a friend who owns a web marketing company. She asked me this week to sign on as a more frequent employee, completing a few hours per week. I'm planning to use this cash to save for a car...or to use towards leasing a car.
I need a car. This isn't working for me anymore. I had a dream the other day that I was in my old Protege 5, driving around with the windows down and my music blasting. I was in heaven. Having a car represents so much freedom for me. I like the option of picking up to visit family and friends. Or going to the mall last minute. Or going to grab more than one bag of groceries at a time. I realize that there are ways of doing these things when you don't have a car - they just take so much planning and time. Having people pick me up all the time is frustrating for me as well. They don't seem to mind, but the fact that I have been an independent gal my whole life, it pains me.
Most importantly, my sister finished her chemotherapy treatments last week. Next week she has an appointment with the surgeon to discuss a plan of action, if any. I'm confident that she will be cancer-free. I'm just happy that she will finally have some energy to spend with her kids and can allow herself a nice glass of wine every once in a while.
Lastly, let's chat about the weather in Toronto. It has been soooo splendid this summer. I was picturing a summer like last year, with the humidity being out of control. Instead, we accept rain every day or so, for no more than an hour. We receive lots of sun and no mugginess. We enjoy pleasant temperatures in the low to mid 20s. We collect cooler evenings. It has been AMAZING. I don't understand those that bitch and complain about the amount of rain we have received. It comes and goes within the hour, cools the day down and allows the city to remain beautiful and green. It's a good thing. Sure, many of my ball games have been rained out, but every problem has a solution. We simply played those games on other nights to make up for it.
Okay folks, that's it on my end. I want to thank those that have endured my negativity this summer. I have snapped out of it and hopefully will be in a better place from now on.
This is a beautiful song by Feist that encourages you to enjoy life for what it is- to live in the moment. I hope you all live in the moment and have a great rest of 2008.
3 comments:
Mer, I’m so glad that things are looking up for you (and your loved ones) because, damn girl, no one deserves it more. I know you’ll fully take advantage of all the good that’s coming your way.
Here’s where I gotta bust your balls.
While certainly I don’t think the summer has been completely awful, it’s definitely been less than exemplary weather-wise. SUMMER is supposed to be HOT and (relatively) DRY. This cool, rainy business would fine for April and May but once late June rolls around there should be a noticeable change.
Speaking of the rain, yes, of course a certain amount of rainfall is beneficial to maintain the greenery. However, this year we’ve actually experienced record amounts, often in the form of torrential downpours accompanied by damaging/lethal lightning. Also, I agree that rain is necessary to cool down after an intense spell of heat but the temp has rarely gone past 25C in the last couple of months so that theory doesn’t really apply this year.
/end rant
BTW I love this Feist song and video.
We'll agree to disagree. In western Canada this is the norm. So yes, maybe Toronto usually experiences hotter temps and humidity, but I still think it has been pleasant...no need for jackets during the day and no need to carry hankies to wipe the sweat off our brows.
My theory was based on the fact that there has been no chance of the temp rising when it rains so often. It may be a failed theory, but you can't blame a girl for trying.
Thanks for the well wishes.
MM
I agree that the weather has been beautiful and the grass has been greener than last year....I love it!
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