Confession?

" Bless me Father for I haven't blogged; it's been 19 days since my last blog, and these are my thoughts."

You can take the girl out of the Catholic church, but you can't take the Catholic out of the girl, I guess.

So quite a bit has happened since the last entry.

Laurelle starts chemo today (Wednesday) and she will be having this treatment for 6 months. Her appetite is coming back slowly, but surely. The sweet tooth is coming back too - yah!

June is a friend from high school that I lost contact with once we graduated. I could kick myself, because she was such an amazing person. They say life shouldn' t be full of regrets but I regret that I lost contact with her and others from high school, every day. I have since reconnected with those that I missed, but I will never be able to enjoy June again, in person. Her husband is organizing a gala for her, to raise money for cancer research. I decided to go, and have been trying to sell tickets on his behalf.

Here is the link:

I have decided to shave my head in support of both her and June, and to raise funds for the Canadian Cancer Society. I would have shaved it just for Laurelle, but I wanted to help more than that. I have amazing people in my life and they have been more than willing to help out. Cancer seems to have touched almost everyone's life lately. Every day I hear about someone that has lost a parent, sibling, grandparent or friend to cancer. I'm hoping that in 20 years, our kids will be talking about cancer like we talk about the plague or polio. I hope it's something that has a cure or a vaccine. It's such a terrible disease.

Anyhow, as I was trying to figure out WHEN I was going to shave my head, I thought it would be cool to maybe have it done at June's Gala. As I thought about it, I started to think that it wasn't such a cool idea since it was taking away from it being her night. I didn't want to make it about me, even though I was raising awareness and money. My Facebook status that night stated that I had decided to go ahead with the head shave. The next morning, June's husband, Rye, had emailed me to ask if I would do it at the gala. It was almost meant to be. He said that I know as well as he does, that June would be all over this idea. She wasn't much for the spotlight and always wanted others to shine.

How could I say no?

So, I made a goal of $3000 and set up this website less than a week ago. I am already up to $1900. The support has been tremendous.

People keep asking me if I am nervous... but I am not. At all. I actually can't wait for it to come off. I just need to invest in some cool hats for work to draw the attention away from my head in public. Other than that, take it all off. I'm ready. I'm not even sure that I will dye my hair again after this. It's so damaged from 6 years of dye. Time for a rest. I'm nervous to find out how grey I am though!

I spoke to a friend named Shannon who shaved her head 4 months ago (for cancer) and she gave me some tips, so I am well prepared. The most important tip is to have the cancer ribbon symbol shaved into the back of my head....this way strangers will know why you have chosen to shave your head.

Personally, I will be telling people that I shaved it off due to having the worst possible case of head lice. I love to see reactions, so that will be a bit of fun, non?

Here is the website for the head shave. Please donate if you haven't already. I thank you, Laurelle thanks you, and June would thank you if she was still here. She is probably looking down at us, smiling. When you look up the definition of "inspiration" in the dictionary, there should be a picture of her beside it.

Rye encouraged me by saying that even if I only raise a dollar, that is a dollar more than the Canadian Cancer Society had before I started this venture. Very true.